3/21/01 [Journal Entry]

Day one- can the comeback kid do it again? I feel hopeful. I feel blessed. I will attack the beast with all that God blessed me with. I will prevail God willing.

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Down hill - nature’s fuel, the greater the heights reached the higher the octane. Impact anticipated with pain that reality could never duplicate. You’ve been dead for months though with screaming gone silence by locked doors pillowed sleep no one hears or sees odie *****? missing them seft *******? of help quietly waiting for the coldness of loss making them feel at first sadness, then an overwhelming relief that is was you and not them.